January 2011
14 posts
Happy birthday, Roe v. Wade.
Monthiversaries are bullshit.
Nevertheless, I thought it was noteworthy that Mike and I have been doing this thing for over a month, if you can believe that (I can’t). He is totally crazy about me, and I’m really digging him. The trust, the spark, the fun, it’s all there, and it’s all awesome. I’ve been working mostly mornings and midshifts, so I don’t see him at work very often and...
Homesick.
As many of you probably know (being in the same situation), a good friend of mine from college recently lost her father, suddenly, unexpectedly. I read the blog post about 15 minutes before I was supposed to leave for work, and sat there, stunned, for several minutes, before I managed a totally inadequate condolence text. When I received an almost instant “Thank you”, I broke down...
I've found the sweet spot.
Where I’m dreading tomorrow and I want to go to sleep but the pressure is on and I know I can’t, and my words have started flowing.
Also, I’ve found that happy place where I am able to remember how awesome I am and write about it. Trying to sell myself usually gives me major attacks of self doubt, but I have managed to banish them for my usual immodesty.
Blarg.
I haven’t done shit all day. And I even got up at a reasonable hour. What is wrong with me? I’m never going to get laid ever again, because I’ll be grounded forever. How has that not motivated me?
I'm grounded.
I’ve grounded myself. Until I get my apps that are due really soon pretty much done (aside from giving them a little bit of time to simmer in my brain before going back to edit), I don’t get to have any more fun.
Which sucks, because today is cold and rainy and gross and M and I are both off work, so it would be the perfect day to curl up on the couch and watch movies. I hate being...
I am too happy.
I think people at work are starting to think something’s wrong with me, because I’m so happy all the time for no apparent reason. My mother might also be starting to think the good things in my life that she knows about are not quite enough to cause these levels of happiness.
Also, I got some excellent news at work. It looks like I’m probably moving up.
I'm sorry I can't shut up about this.
It is a strange thing to go from being starved for affection to being saturated with it in such a short time. I keep thinking I’m going to wake up from a dream and find that it was all in my head, that I never decided what I needed, realized it was right in front of me, and went for it. What if it hadn’t worked out? I could have had a one night stand, then an awkward morning after,...
New Year's Resolutions
1) Have way more and way better sex than ever before (yes, okay, I have a one track mind these days. I can’t help it. My other experiences have been very few, very far between and mostly somewhere between unsatisfying and bad, and now I’m getting it regularly and often and it is mind-blowingly fantastic, and I have so far avoided becoming entangled in too much crazy emotional...
Happy New Year.
I haven’t updated in a bit. Also, I keep taking down posts about M because I feel weird about the fact that I’m sharing details about my secret relationship with 30 followers and I don’t know all of them. Then again, M will never find this blog because he is technologically challenged, and no one who reads it will ever meet him, probably, and I can’t really share much...